Month: January 2021

Collectif Mainline Winona Pencil Dress

I like Collectif as they have some really nice clothing, some really nice designs and this Collectif Mainline Winona Pencil Dress caught my eye and I had to buy it.

This looks amazing on and is defintely my new go to work meeting dress, love it!

In general the stuff i’ve bought from Collectif has been true to size but some of their dresses are a little on the tight side. I also bought a Mainline Wanda Polka Dot Pencil Dress which was a size 18 and i’d say its more like a 16. Its tight around my bust.

Check out Collectif as some of their retro stuff is really nice. I will be ordering more as funds allow.

Anxiety again

Anxiety again, doing my head in.
Cant be myself, Stepping backward again,
Because, I can’t be, the real me,
A dose of anxiety as bad as can be.

Working away, 2 weeks, 10 hours a day,
Work environment says, no heels, no make-up,
Can’t even call myself by my name, resort to my dead name,
My mental anguish, this is failing to fix.

The longer I’m not me, personality locked away,
I think that I’m not doing the right thing over and over again,
This makes me feel like I’m worthless, not worthy of life,
It’s not happening as I want and I’ll never be good enough.

I wake and exist, my life feels so numb,
This job makes me feel so bad inside of my head,
Work hard all day and then return to an empty hotel room,
No pub I can go to, so I lie on my bed.

I can’t sleep either, don’t want to be here,
Anywhere is preferential, so I sit here and sink,
My thoughts screaming at me, my anxiety makes me feel bad,
I try to be cheery, but end up more sad.

Why am I worried, why should I care,
No one gives a shit about me out there,
I toss and I turn but anxiety says,
Soon you’ll have to get up and face another day.

My anxiety now raging, feeling bad deep inside,
but the thoughts in my head, can’t escape from this time,
I hate how I feel and I hate how I look,
Not who I want to be, this is not who I am.

I slumber a little but awake with a jolt,
My mind it is racing, say’s you’re something your not,
I arise and I shower, catch a glimpse in the mirror,
This person I see, not pleasant, not a winner.

One more day’s work and a night in my Covid lockdown box,
Then I can leave this work prison and get back to my life,
Look forward to arising and getting dressed up so nice,
One more day at this shit hole of a place.

I finish after 14 hours and shower and lay on my bed,
Tomorrow my life returns to normality, inside and outside my head,
I sleep like a baby and arise fully rested and set,
Can dress as me today, my patience long tested.

I arise many hours before I have to leave the Covid hotel,
Preen myself into oblivion, today I return to myself,
I dress like a queen, best of everything i’ve got,
Look like a million dollars, in the mirror I spot.

2 hours go by and I feel fit to burst,
High heels, stockings, and suspenders, my long dress does hide,
My suitcase is packed, place my coat on my shoulders,
Step outside my room, my excitement can’t hide.

I catch my reflection in the mirror in reception,
Damn babes, you look like you, you look fab,
I step outside the hotel and my anxiety flies away,
I wave a little but know it will be back another day.

In 5 hours, I return to my home,
I feel amazing even though I’m alone,
Dressed like I want to, I step from the car,
Back home now bitches, I’m Mikki and proud.

I’m in Facebook jail, Facebook hypocrisy

So new year, new first world problems. I’m in Facebook jail!

My heinous crime against humanity was to take a screenshot of a very dubious Facebook advert. See below.

So there you have it folks, because I reposted this dubious picture which in itself is a Facebook advert for tophatter. Btw I wasn’t looking for this and this is one of the very many dubious adverts I see on Facebook, along with the words WTF? I got sent to Facebook jail.

I don’t agree with this so appealed my decision and I’m still in Facebook jail.

What makes me laugh is:

  • It’s a repost of a Facebook advert
  • It’s doesn’t show nudity or sexual activity
  • It’s okay for Facebook to post this on my feed, what about my standards of taste and decency.
  • The hypocrisy of banning me for reposting Facebook’s own material.
  • It’s been there for nearly 2 months!

Bollocks to your Facebook jail!

Anyway, I really don’t give a shit about Facebook and Facebook jail, as I’ve been using Facebook less and less over the past 12 months and have moved onto other social media platforms. I just thought it was very ironic I got banned for reposting one of their own adverts!

I did try to appeal the ban but because Facebook’s system is automated it doesn’t give a shit because it doesn’t fit their criteria so, ban!

If you want to see how Facebook, Twitter and all these large social media platforms make money then checkout, the Social Dilemma on Netflix. It will definitely open your eyes to free online services and social media.

Facebook jail

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