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Dont care what you think about me

I don’t care what you think about me.
Or your perception, of what you think I might be.
I don’t care if you think that I’m weird.
I don’t care if you think I am strange.
Because what you don’t see, is the mental anguish and pain.

All the bitterness of whats inside, thats made me cry.
Internal conflict for most of my life, despite being married and loving a wife.
I’m looking in the mirror and now what I see, is a much better version of me.
If you don’t agree with who I am or what I do, your welcome to unfriend me, that’s up to you.
I won’t be offended or hurt you see, because, at the end of each day, I’m happy with me!

My friends they see me for what I am, be that as a woman and not a man.
I’ve changed a lot, for all that’s clear to see.
I’m happy now, I really am me!
Looking in you’ll only see, the smallest part, of who I used to be.
That person’s not gone, it’s still there, but happier inside.

One day, sat myself down and cried and cried.
All those times that I had lied, a little bit more inside me died.
Lied not to others, but to myself, lied about who I am, my real self.
Like an broken toy, left on the shelf.
Felt like my life wasn’t right then thought only of myself.

First time in my life, thought of who I should be.
Can’t lie to myself anymore, honesty the best policy.
So many times in my life, put others first.
But alas, no more, not for anyone else.
So, what if I’ve changed how I look and how I feel.

It’s my life and things just got real.
You don’t know how I’ve suffered so.
Or the conflict inside, fought with myself and metaphorically died.
Alone every step, couldnt explain my thoughts.
Those I tried, pushed me away, their standard retort, “Hey, are you gay?”

What I’m doing now, I do it for me.
Please understand, and be happy inside.
Those feelings no more, no longer can I hide.
When most people in life don’t know who they are.
Here I am, big and proud. Internal pain no more.

Take me as I am, I’ve changed for the better!
Please don’t treat me differently, my life is so much better.
And to my friends, your support has been invaliable.
I love you so much, your help, your love and the rent of your ears.
Next round is on me, I owe you some beers.

I don’t care what you think about me.
Or your perception, of what you think I might be.
I don’t care if you think that I’m weird.
I don’t care if you think I am strange.
But understand I am who you see and for the first time in my life i’m truly happy.

7 comments on “Dont care what you think about me

  1. Hayley says:

    I know its been hard for you but i’m glad i’ve been able to help. You are amazing my friend and i’m so glad i’ve been there to discuss things and see the change. Stay strong and i’ll see you soon <3

    1. mikki says:

      Thank you Hayley. Thank you for being there. Thank you for listening and thank you for your advice.

  2. Kim says:

    Fucking hell Mikki. That’s beautiful. Its been my pleasure to help you over the past year. You are exceptional and its my pleasure to call you “Friend”. Love you.

    1. mikki says:

      Thanks Kim. Love you to mate. Night out in Blackpool soon.

  3. Alibobs says:

    As I said on Facebook, that’s beautiful. I see you as the person you truly are.

    1. mikki says:

      Ta, see you on Sunday.

  4. Thomas says:

    Love it. My friend you’re amazing and dont you forget it, and anytime you need an ear you call me.
    Your new found happiness is clear for us all to see and you are more than welcome here anytime.

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